sleepless nights

i just can't sleep no matter how tired i am. energy surges from nowhere under the moonlight. every time i close my eyes, turn off the lights, my mind starts to zoom all around. entertaining it may seem, enjoyable it may feel, i've got 6hours of classes starting 8 in the morning and this will be one way to kill it well. i've alway been a night owl but this time it seems like it's something else. feels like something is bothering me but i just don't know what exactly.

disconnected

brrr no internet the past 2 days.. i thought it was down but i actually forgot to pay my bills.. 3months actually hahaha so yeah went to get it paid and connected!
i have done 2 evil deeds in the same 2 days heehee

1) yes it is an evil deed as i am not suppose to eat fastfood at will for an entire year. i blame the weather actually, it was so hot and the easiest and most convenient place to go for a quick lunch with air conditioning would be McDonald's. :)
2) i hate people pushing their sales proposal to me especially after i rejected it. i already said no i don't want to buy your life insurance, not even the most basic ones as it would cost rm100/month at least. being the persistent insurance agent she was, she kept insisting(makulit!) so well, i grew my horns and said okay let's meet. but i didn't show up neither did i switch on my cell. i'm evil right? :(

robots.

i sometimes feel that we live like automated robots on a sequential movement. one act after another and not really doing what we enjoy. we blame anything and probably everything already by now, having a life we don't really want to live. "boring, boring, boring!" i heard that all too much from so many people so ever frequently. at times i do try giving them some ideas i'd do when i've got literally nothing at hand but the feedback i get are "nah", "that's not fun", "i'll just stay at home lah", "serious ah? lazy la.." and the list just goes on.


truth to be told, i was one of the people in those group with 'bored' stamped on their foreheads. heh, laugh all you want but i am no hypocrite. i'm taking that emptiness of spare time to do what i like to do, or what benefits others. i do still stare blank sometimes and get bored, but hey, i'm human, not a robot!


we laugh when terminator 1&2 was out, thinking nah that can't be possible. terminator 3&4 came by and we hear people freaking out "that's so possible! imagine one day they took over???". well to me, they've already took over. it's a losing battle everyday.. i can see it most rampant in kids and youths nowadays.. it's as if their lives can't be lived without something that they want. it always has to be what they want, not what they can do. oh, and they want it fast. like RIGHT NOW! sometimes i just wanna tell them to go and cook instant noodles if they want something that fast.


peace out to all bored people out there! i'm not here to mock you, just simply letting you know that the remote is in your hands and you can decide what's next for yourselves. alternately, just unplug and go manual. :)